New hair color – thanks to my friends Cassidy and Tyler

So, i asked Cassidy and Tyler about what i should do with my hair and I see that they gave me good advice on what colors to get. So i got what they suggested and then last night they came over and started to color my hair. And after 2 applications of the vampire red hair color from Manic Panic and the attempt at bleaching certain strands for blonde highlights that ….didnt…..quite turn blonde. Here is the end result. i think you will like it. I know i do and i look DAMN hot now. Take that BITCHES!!! Giggles

My Best Friend – Rose

Yesterday i was woken up by my best friend Rose. She was in a lot of pain and having really bad girly issues. So i took her to the clinic to get seen, and after an hour, they said, oh sorry, we cant see you for 3 weeks. Well with her girly issues which is very heavy bleeding, she would be dead before they saw her. So I took her to UNMC and went to the ER. that was about 10am. After 2 pelvic exams, and an ultrasound done, she is going to have a procedure done where she wont have these periods anymore.

The waiting is what killed me, not knowing what would happen, if she was going to get help, how long would she continue to bleed, if i was going to lose my best friend. It is what you would do for your friend that makes a difference in their life, that is what matters.

Her and I have known each other for 6 years now, and now that we are together in the same city, we help each other out and really be the bestest friends we can be for each other. A shoulder to cry on, two arms to hug each other with, a heart to care for each other.

Rose, my friend.

thank you for being you.

Song Lyrics, to speak from the heart.

When you hear a song, sometimes it is just the beat you listen to, but certain songs the lyrics is what catches your attention. One song has done that for me. Is my heart actually singing this to someone? Are you that special one that these lyrics speaks of?

the song is – Hunter Hayes – Wanted

 

“Wanted”

You know I’d fall apart without you
I don’t know how you do what you do
‘Cause everything that don’t make sense about me
Makes sense when I’m with you
Like everything that’s green, girl I need you
But it’s more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you’re wanted too

‘Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
Never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted

Anyone can tell you you’re pretty
(Yeah)
You get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty’s deeper than the makeup
And I wanna show you what I see tonight

When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
Never let you forget it
‘Cause baby I wanna make you feel wanted

As good as you make me feel
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your fairy tales
Better than your best dreams
You’re more than everything I need
You’re all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted

And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
Never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted
Yeah, baby I wanna make you feel -
Wanted
‘Cause you’ll always be wanted

Les Miserables – Movie Review

Ok, had to see a movie to get the bad taste of a terrible movie out of my head.

When you have to sit through an hour of bad acting and pitiful 3d effect, you need something to redeem that horrible image.

So I went to see Les Miserables. OMG that was awesome. But one exception to that awesome movie – Russel Crowe

 

He cant sing for crap. As matter of fact, his singing SUCKS, however, i would take his singing over having to sit through Texas Chainsaw Massacrap.

Seeing movies with Rose, is the perfect person to see movies with. She gives commentary during the movie, jump at scary parts and has to properly drink from a cup or it will get all over her, but she is the bestest friend i could have to enjoy time with at a movie.

 

She picks on me and i pick on her, the perfect friendship that will never go away. Thank you Rose for being you.

So go see Les Miserables, just not that texas massacrap.

 

Isabella Twilight Kitty

Movie Review – Texas Chainsaw Massacre 3D

OMFG – let me repeat that – Ohhh MYYYY Fuccckiinngg GODDDDD

I cant ever get the hour of that movie that I saw back. I lost SOOOO many braincells by watching that pitiful excuse of a movie.

I love my scary movies, I love horror movies, and that isnt one of them. Waking up next to my ex wife while she is nude is more of a nightmare than that movie could ever be.

The plot – Stupid – Come on, how many times have we seen these movies?? Really?

The Acting – Horrable

The 3D effect – ummm, there was 3d effects? Where? Oh, that? *giggles histerically* Yeah Right

The blood – FAKE

The movie – B O R I N G

I would rather watch grass grow in the dead of winter in the south pole than watch this again.

Isabella – Twilight Kitty

UPDATE – I go to Darkhorizons.com and check out movie news and rumors and i found this :

“Chainsaw 3D” Tops Box-Office, Gets Sequel?

Despite bad reviews, “Texas Chainsaw 3D” over performed in the first U.S. weekend box-office results of 2013. The only new wide release this past Friday, the film took the top spot with $23 million in three days.Considering the film was made on a budget of under $20 million, it comes as no shock that there’s already sequel talk. In fact, Bloody Disgusting hears the producers acquired the rights to make up to six further films after this, and ‘Chainsaw 3D’ is just the start of an entirely new franchise at Lionsgate.’Texas’ came in just ahead of Quentin Tarantino’s “Django Unchained” which held well in its second week and now sits at a very nice $106 million gross so far. It will easily surpass “Inglorious Basterds” as QT’s most successful film.

All i can say is – WHAT THE FLYING FUCK ARE THEY THINKING?? SoMeOnE Rip my EyEs out now Please???

Isabella Twilight Kitty

New Years – Out with the Old and In with the New – MY year to SHINE!!

Well 2012 is over,  spending the final moments with the bestest friend – Rose and also my Son – Sean. We toasted in the new year and it will be a very good year of 2013 for me. 7 months away from a milestone in my life – I turn the big 40. Yep, i will be 40, and damn i will look good. Dont even look my age. And i am sure i dont and wont act like my age.

A new outlook on life, new challenges to face, the continuation of my journey to become who I am inside. This year will be fun and exciting.

Dont you agree? If you think it wont, or you are planning on being in my way – being a roadblock, well hope you have insurance cause i will be running over your ass with my posse. The people that will stand by me, will care for me, will love me and will be behind me, will help me to run anyone over that will try to bring me down, will attempt to not let me be me, will try to stop my awakening.

New Year’s Resolutions?

hmmmm

only ONE – The resolution I made -

To be ME – To love ME – To be HAPPY.

 

Isabella – Twilight Kitty

Traditions – Dreams or reality?

Traditions – are they dreams or are they reality?

What do i mean? let me enlighten you. Have a seat…..Sit NOW. Good. Now listen.

 

I have certain things i used to do on certain holidays. Some i want to be a tradition that happens every year. Like for instance, getting a special christmas ornament every year to resemble that year in my life. A very good tradition that is a reality cause i make sure i get one every year.

But there are ones that i want to happen – at the stroke of midnight on christmas to be able to kiss someone beautiful, and not just a peck, i mean a passionate long deep kiss. And then that same tradition on New Years Eve at the stroke of midnight.  We could even do that on Valentines Day as well.

Are they reality?

I used to think so, but it seems like lately that they are dreams that seem to be invisible when that moment of time comes.

Will anyone make them reality? Or am i wishing with one hand and shitting in the other and that hand is filling up faster.

I wrote a poem a while back that kinda fits the mood i am in. Every poem i write has lots of feeling in it, my heart and soul goes into everything I do.

This poem is called – Poem from Beyond the Mind

 

Love is Difficult

Love is Confusing

Love is Hard to Find

 

When you think you have it

It gets taken away from you

 

When you find it and grab it

It slips through your fingers

 

Love is attached to your heart

Love is part of your soul

Love controls your mind

 

When you think its real

It becomes a dream

 

When you find and believe it is true

It becomes a knife in the back

Showing you it is fake

 

How do i break free

When it is everything I crave

When it is everything I need

How do i find it for real?

@twilightkittygirl

 

Dont think i can say anything more right now.

Christmas …. Hell has no fury while working at a Movie Theater

OK, i know Christmas is a time to spend with the family and to open your presents, and enjoy christmas dinner and then enjoy the gifts you receive. But why come to a movie theater and make it the WORST FUCKING DAY TO WORK EVER… do i need to say it again?

And, out of all the people that could have worked tonight, unlike last year when everyone was supposed to work, myself and 2 other people worked. We managed the best we could but when i end up having a line of people for over an hour and a half all by myself, it is tiresome.

If you are going to go see a movie, PLEASSEEE make sure you know what movie you are going to see before coming to the theater and NOTTT spend 15 minutes staring at the sign that has the movie times and go …uhhh what is this movie about and what is that one about.

Really???

Are you FUCKING kidding me?

If everyone knew what they wanted to see and then knew what they wanted in concession, they would not have to wait so long in line.

And PLEASE tell me why NO ONE CAN READ…..everything from words on a door that say EXIT ONLY all the way to a name on a name tag. I am really getting sick and fucking tired of people calling me Sir, or Bro, or Dude. My name that reads on my name tag is….BELLA. Does that even remotely resemble a male? I am a fucking transgender male to female pre-op. I am inside a woman, i am working on changing the outside to match the beautiful woman that lies inside. So i might have a few male features that might still resemble the old me, but cant people read a name tag? *growls loudly*

And if you plan on smoking stuff that stinks like nasty shit….spray something on yourself to cloud the smell. Gross!!!! EWWWWWWW. I just cant stand that smell anymore. It almost makes me sick to my stomach.

 

All in all Christmas could have been better, but it could have been ALOT worse.

Isabella – Twilight Kitty Girl

Christmas and what to be thankful for

I have seen so many people doing their days of thanks of what they are thankful for. I think i should finally do mine.

I know i have friends that care for me and love me for who I am. I thought i wouldnt have a Christmas this year and I get surprised again and again from different friends on stuff that was sent to me for Christmas this year. It makes it so much more special to know that there are people out there that truely care and love you no matter what is happening.

So I will explain what I got for Christmas.

A pair of sunglasses that will make me look sexy

A Cameo necklace that would look beautiful on me with a low cut top

A Twilight journal and playing cards from Forks, Washington

Lipstick in Pink (Yeah I know) and Mascara

3 Purses, Clothespins, and a jewelry box with hand made jewelry. Really good ones too

Closer up view of the jewelry

A Kitty necklace and earrings to go with it

a Pink Ribbon stone for meditation. Need that soon, I will tell you. Giggles

A Kitty felt like purse, Twilight Scene-it dvd game, Twilight Woods lotion and ummm, yes that is what you think it is. umm Nothing more i need to say about that. giggles.

What I am thankful for is true friends that care for me. Wonderful family – Mom and Dad that are trying to survive when the government wont give them the help they need to survive. My closest friends who i hold deep in my heart. Each one of you know who you are and you truely keep my heart beating.

No matter what happens, I try to keep my head up and enjoy things the best I can. It is kinda rough now. Struggling for funds for gas, food to survive, now with christmas coming, presents for my son, my parents, just to make the holidays seem somewhat bright.

I just wish i had someone close to enjoy this with. Who knows though what life will bring me, and maybe Santa can help with that.

Enough of my ramble for this time,

Twilight Kitty – Isabella

Ok….

Ok, so i woke up the other morning and felt different about myself.

I dont care what anyone else thinks, i dont care what anyone else has to say about me. I  couldnt even care less what everyone says to me.

I am beautiful. I no longer believe i am the old person i used to be. That person is dead in my eyes.

I know who i am, what i am working towards and I WILL become that someday.

Am I looking for love? I already have the love i need – Friends that care and love me, Family that will stick by me and love me, and I love me.

Am I looking for someone to share that with? Of course but i am not going to search, I will be just me and the perfect person will surface and be the ONE.

Is the right one out there? Yes, and that person will find me.

 

My Life, My TIME, and it is NOW.

 

Dont like it, Deal with it, or Fuck OFF and get out of my way or i will RUN your ass over!!