What do I say to bring you up to speed on everything that has been happening to me since my last post. Alot has been going on, many things change and many things have not. New challenges have been taken upon and alot have been accomplished or just dropped off.
First off, I have to get this off my chest so it doesnt build up anymore.
My decisions on what I am doing with my life is MY decisions and no one can change that. No matter what anyone says, it wont change how i feel and who I know i am inside. I am sick and tired of people telling me how to live my life, if you dont like what I am doing, deal with it cause i wont change. I am tired of crying, I am tired of hurting. I am not going to hurt or cry anymore. This is my life, get over it. Either like it, or leave it.
Now that I got that off of my chest.
Lets get to the past few months.
Well, not much has really gone on. Still working at the theater, been there for almost 2 and a half years, i have been seeing lots of movies, and taking care of Mom and Dad and Rose. Been seeing lots of movies at the theater and even went on a trip to almost ohio to get Rose’s boyfriend but that was unsuccessful due to the situation at his place. But now he is here and everyone is so much happier.
As far as my well being, i am trying to survive the best way I can, but I have something good to report. After it has taken over a year to set up, I am now back in school. I am currently going to school for Massage Therapy. I am going to become a massage therapist. After the 1 year diploma, I will also take the extra 6 to 8 months to go for the associates degree in Therapeutic Massage. I also am trying to become a part time assistant manager at the movie theater. I hope i get it cause it would help boost my ego and i can believe in myself easier.
I want to include a poem I wrote recently for someone special, the person it was written for will know who they are.
As the soft soothing sounds whisper into my ears,
the stress and pain begin to slip away.
The troubles, the worries, the fears,
begin to float and drift away.
The Darkness that has been so close for so long,
begins to fade as the light begins to dawn.
What is my path, where is it leading?
What keeps my heart beating?
One Star, One wish, so true,
All that leads up to You.
Hope, courage, dreams are alive now
confidence grows and goals are achieved.
The pain that is given by others are healed
While the memories still remain
only til new ones are made.
Life can shine, dreams can sparkle
but only with the right guidance and wisdom
Love is the bond, love is the glue
Love brings together me and you.
So, has life gotten better, in some ways, yes. New goals to achieve, new paths to go down, new additions to my support team. New challenges to beat. Who knows what lies in the darkness, who knows what will happen in our lives, but if i stand up for what I believe in, for who I am, no one is ever going to bring me down again.
I will do another post on current situations that are going on at this moment.
Isabella – Twilight Kitty